"Has it really been that long?"
That's the thought that has been running through my mind constantly ever since I logged back into my Blogger account a week or so ago and it's crazy because I had told myself a year ago that I was going to be better about updating this thing. For some reason or another I've always found excuses not to but, I promise, THIS time will be different.
Needless to say, I have plenty of things of note to talk about and I assure you that I will address everything in due time; but, for now, I think a quick overview of things will serve just fine.
What can I say? This past year has been a proverbial roller coaster. From friends, to family, to women...I've been through more than my fair share of "trust issues" with all three and it seems like everything has been constantly rotating around in a vicious circle. I never seem to learn my lesson, it seems, but I'm slowly starting to grasp this concept that sometimes keeping your guard up is in your own best interest.You can only wear your heart on your sleeve for so long and, the more that I do, the more I seem to be hurt by it.
Is it my fault? Yes, I acknowledge that fact wholeheartedly, but it's what makes me, me and I wouldn't change that for the world.
As you can see, this is quite the constant "internal conflict" that I have going on here; but hopefully the next couple of blog entries will help as I delve deeper into this beautiful mind of mine. I can't promise that everything will make sense but what I can promise is that I won't glorify any aspect of it in order to make me sound any better than who I am as a person. Instead, my intent is to present you with the unbridled truth [as seen through my eyes] and the best starting point, I think, would have to be this crazy little thing called love...
-xO
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